God led me to this amazing video of base jumping in wing suits today while spending time with
Him. I have been craving intimacy with Him
yet I have been remiss in my busyness to take the precious time with Him I need. This video expresses quite well the terror/excitement
I am experiencing in this season as He has compelled Kurt and me to take flight
as well, only in a spiritual sense instead of the natural. As terrifying as it is to completely let go
and fly in absolute trust of the Lord when He is compelling you to take a tremendous
leap of faith, it is at the same time a thrill which few are willing to
take. We naturally want excitement, but
not at the expense of giving up more of our comfort level than that of which we
are “comfortable”! We want to take off into
realms unknown while standing squarely on the ground giving us sure footing,
which is in fact, unattainable.
The details of what we are specifically dealing with in our
move to Missouri basically seem to be creating an impossible situation which
seems to be getting even more impossible, if impossible can become more impossible. :) For our protection in knowing we are going
the right direction, however, God in His mercy, is closing all doors to which
we could be tempted to either retreat or enter wrongfully. Our true hearts’ desire is to be in the right
place at the right time.
Sometimes a strange thing happens once you abandon the known
to walk in the supernatural; the unseen forces which operate in this earth
begin to oppose you making things seem like you are now out of the will of God. I’m
so grateful that in my cluelessness, God knows exactly what He is doing and understands
how much to allow things to heat up. He
knows how to work it all out for good. I
noticed in the video those aerobic thrill seekers looked like they were going
to crash any moment into the edge of the rocky cliffs…but they never did, they
just kept flying! They were confidently defying
the gravity that wants to keep us grounded.
They were obviously in full trust they were navigating the course
correctly.
This is where my husband and I are. Even though adrenalin bursts as if in a fight
or flight situation as risk factors increase, we know we are soaring in
complete trust in our God. He is big
enough to correct our course if we are not hearing correctly. The Lord once told me, “I cannot move a
docked ship into the right direction.
You must move! Even if in the
wrong direction, I can steer you in the right one. Don’t let fear of making a mistake paralyze
you and cause you to miss My best for you.”
Last Friday, some very bad news came to us and we had all
but given up, thinking that unless God brought something to open the way that
day, we were finished with the course we were so desperately fighting to
maintain. Late that afternoon, we got a
call that brought us a renewed sense of hope that we were to proceed. In recognizing the multitude of fears we were
facing, through tears which blurred my natural vision, I could clearly see the
main fear I was facing. I had to admit,
I was afraid of looking foolish to others.
We have boldly proclaimed our faith journey before us to any ears among
us! We have confessed the outcome as we
believe God has shown us…but what if we’re wrong? What if this whole thing doesn’t turn out
well for us after all? Oh God…how I HATE
the torture doubt brings…
God woke my husband
and me up Sunday, in the wee hours of 3:00-4:00 am which seem to be the Lord’s favorite
time to call me to attention! I knew Kurt
was lying there awake as well but neither one spoke. We were each contemplating the move God has placed before us to which we said, “Yes, we will go,” but to which nothing has
seemed to be simple or conventional to orchestrate. Returning to my beloved family is easy on my
soul and welcomed with open arms by us both, but the circumstances to do so
have been nothing short of terrifying.
God has purposefully denied us having any sure footing in this
move.
That morning as I lay awake, the Lord began to speak to me
with pictures forming in my mind of Peter and the other disciples from Matthew
14. Jesus had just sent the multitudes
away and HE PUT THE DISCIPLES IN THE BOAT; then He left! A storm arose and they were starting to freak
out. They were in the middle of the sea…too
far out to turn back. It was somewhere
between 3 and 6 am when they saw a figure moving on the surface of the
water. They thought it was apparition
which was a superstitious sign and was particularly such to sailors as they believed that manifestation to be a sign of certain shipwreck. Immediately Jesus spoke to them and told them
to be of good cheer and not to be afraid!
We, like Peter, continually want the Lord to identify Himself and therefore, Peter’s answer to the Lord was that if this truly was the Lord, then he wanted to perform a supernatural event. He
specifically asked the WORD (Jesus) to COMMAND him to come and supernaturally
walk with Him. (In God's mercy, He “kissed”
us with confirmation that we have heard His voice with that very message and
scripture being taught on a podcast of a sermon we watched a few hours later.)
Asking to walk in the supernatural is exactly what Kurt’s
heart has yearned for and of which he has been seeking the Lord. I have asked that very thing for a couple of
decades now and have experienced it many times.
As a couple, we have asked God to show us His supernatural side, no
longer satisfied with the doctrines and traditions of men. We too want to walk on the water with our
focus on the Lord alone.
The Lord reminded Kurt that if we indeed wish to see His
supernatural works, we must be placed in situations where it takes a
supernatural event to save us! This supernatural
positioning puts us so far out there, there is no turning back, there is no
protection from “perishing” except from the Lord’s provision, and there are no
resources we can use to find sure footing to hold us up other than the Word
Himself. It’s a place that will be
challenged by everything around us as the very elements themselves seem to
oppose what God has set into motion.
Our focus determines our success to walk this walk. As long as we focus on Jesus, we can do all
things through Him, but if our focus turns instead to the storms around us, we
will surely sink. To help me in this, I
use my creative imagination whenever I am afraid and “see” His face right in
front of mine, as if in an embrace. His loving
eyes so near to mine block out whatever is going on around me and I feel the
fear begin to fade. The more fear
attacking, the closer I picture Him to me as if it is His very breath I am
inhaling. I must admit this latest
season has caused me to feel at times like we are sinking and that the events which
have begun to unfold were a sign of shipwreck as we still continue to deal with
the “storms” which persist to come against us.
However, He promised to never leave us so I KNOW He’s there whether He’s
talking or choosing to be silent. If I
get weak and look to the storms instead of Him, I know as with Peter, He is
with me. He immediately saves me and I
do not perish in that thing of which I am battling. He stretches out His hands and catches me! He is merciful and faithful even though I don’t
deserve it.
Our “boat” of which God has placed us is that we are leaving
all security behind and going to a place Kurt does not know. We don’t have resources to uphold us. It will be the Lord alone who will connect us
to the right people and circumstances as we start over. It will be the Lord who provides our housing
and meets our every need.
We were made to fly, not in the natural, but we have been
given spiritual wings to fly once we accept Jesus as our Savior. He placed that inherently in us which is why our
hearts soar with dreams and
excitement over the endless possibilities before us. He wants us to leave the sure footing of our
resources and wildly abandon ourselves in full trust of Him and FLY! We must ascend in the trust that He knows
what He’s doing. His ways are higher
than ours, which means sometimes our minds will be void of understanding
although deep within the recesses of our inner most being, we will have a sense
of sure footedness, being grounded in Him.
Chickens peck on the fenced-in ground being completely
focused on what is right in front of them and what is readily available to them
in their effort to supply their needs; while eagles soar on unseen winds with
no boundaries to hold them in. I truly
believe God is awakening His Body to a new level of trust in Him to soar. He wants to bless us with more of Him. I am watching Him launch all of my family
members and some friends and acquaintances into their own “boats” of higher
levels of trust. He has commissioned
several I know besides us to commence on an “Abrahamic” journey…leaving all
behind and going to a place they do not know…but they will know when they get
there, Genesis 12:1-4.
Blessings to you as you refuse to allow fear to have its way
with you and you choose to walk on the water!
